Because I'm sick of looking at my ancient, 3-year old journal entry.


For the 2 1/2 ppl that might still read these, I'm on Cricket wireless, the satellite internets got too expensive after I lost my job, and we moved around a bit. And it was a MAJOR pain in the ass to move a satellite dish on a pole mount. I should've invested in a tripod mount or something...

Coulda shoulda woulda. I'm wireless now.


My scanner is in storage with the PC and whatever of my stuff hasn't been ruined by my parents careless moving methods. I'm curently a freelance 3d artist (HA....unemployed) I develop 3d models and the like for IMVU and apparently I'm pretty good at it.

It pays for my intrawebs, and the usb modem i use, and its something I've always wanted to do (make 3d models that is) so I guess thats what I'll be doing for awhile, until IMVU finally fucks itself over and self destructs, or something better comes along.


In addition, a fellow 3d artist there is starting his own MMORPG, mainly in response to IMVU's numerous bugs, glitches and just plain poor coding and scripting. Its called Ends of Legend, and it'll be interesting to watch this project grow, and be part of it. Im currently one of the testers for it, along with some other buddies and fellow developers.


And, I guess I've arrived somehow..... I dunno... I've made some really fancy stuff, including things I thought were far far beyond my skills. O.o


I also made Jean's hair on there, (and armor, AND shoulder pads, and Cathrene's armor/shoulder pads too) after over 9000 tries. I guess that's a sign I have developed some decent skill, and I should make note of that somehow.

I have also been doing this on my laptop. 16MB of vid memory. which translates to "only one 3d app open at a time" which sucks a LOT.



Finally, deviantart. I rarely use it due to not having any way to use my scanner, and the fact that its been so long since I've said 2 words to anyone on my watch list outside of close friends.

Feh, I think I'm some kinda dramawhore or something. That or I just place value on things that I shouldn't place any real value on, or read meaning in things that have no meaning/should mean nothing. I dunno anymore.


I do know I have a brand new core 2 duo motherboard under the couch I sleep on. I bought it on ebay for a bit cheaper than I bought my current PC's Motherboard, and its a P4. SO theres something to look forward to I guess.


What else? I realize I can be a major dick at times, and it doesn't bother me near as much as it used to, I'm at peace with my inner ass I suppose.



I don't have too much left to lose either. Its especially disheartening to realize the irreplaceable things you value and hold dear don't mean shite to anyone else but you.

I really fucking hate carelessness....

However I really think Jean and Cathrene look cool as everliving fuck all in a full 3d chat client. I NEVER thought I'd see that.



Edit: I also never thought I'd see the day I'd stop talking to a very close, dear friend of mine, but here it is.

When a friend goes and pulls something you think is bullshite on you, you either accept it, or you don't accept it.

I do not accept it. Not the umpteenth time it happens anyway.